I haven't updated in a while and I want to try out this new skin. Also, I do wanna see Ninja Assassin, for it looks kickass...

My computer's fucked up more than usual now. It freezes and shit, we had to take everything off and start over.

Lately, I've been feeling like I've just been walking around in a dream; like nothing's real, nothing's happening. Everything's fake and whatever I do doesn't really matter. I guess it also didn't help that The Matrix trilogy came on all in a row this weekend. Each one's 3 hours long, so that's 9 hours. I think the first one was the best one, I always will.
I got kicked out of math class. I failed. Idk, I actually tried on my exam. I have advanced composition now, which is good cause it's an english class. I already know all the shit our teacher's disseminating. I'm still in my at-risk class I go to during lunch.
This term my grade for early american literature is already at a D. But I just need to turn in a speech about being vegetarian. Chemistry I'm at an F. No suprises there. The last term, the chemistry teacher told me that the science department doesn't kick kids out like the math department does, but she wants me to go. I didn't know teachers could tell you to go. I showed up the first day of the new term in her classroom and she was really pissed off, she glared at me. She put me in the last seat way in the back, which I like, but I can't see the board cause I'm near-sighted. I need glasses again. Spanish is easy.

...What's something else...I guess you guys don't know that around a month ago, my sister got into a car accident and almost died. She fell asleep at the wheel and Idk, I guess she woke up or something, cause she noticed she was going into traffic, so she sharply swerved away from the other cars and her car flipped over 4 times and landed on the hood. She still has scars. My mom and aunt said that grandma Ramona and grandma Diane were watching over her. Idk, they can believe what they want.
The last time I hung out with a friend, my dad picked me up. While we were driving, everything was silent. I was just looking out the window, thinking. My dad breaks the silence with this "My friend blew his brains out this week." Of course I'm thinking, ...Wtf. >_> "How long did you know him?" "15 years" Then he kept saying really weird, morbid shit. He was playing with the wheel too. I was kinda freaked. He went to the funeral on Friday. I told mom what happened, but she just kept going on about how she's depressed and shit. And, lately, my dad's been going to the bar and getting drunk and driving home. My mom gets really worried and I think he's being really selfish, cause he doesn't care if he dies. Which he reminds me constantly. >_> My mom and I were talking one night while he was at the bar and she was telling me that she was done with everything. She can't take it anymore. She says that she understands that dad's dying and shit, but she doesn't feel like sticking around. "I'm not staying just cause he's dieing." >_> That line pissed me off. She says that he'll die in 1-3 years. Idk, she could at least try to be a little bit nicer to him. So yeah, they don't care. Idk.
My mom's also going to Dubai for spring break. That's in the Middle East. It's $2000 a ticket. I wanna go to, but she was like "Rawr, show me the fuckin money then" all sarcastic like. I have 2 job applications. I'm gonna make that money. I should prolly go work on my homework. It's stupid cause I'm actually trying, yet I still fail.